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Do you ever have those friends or colleagues who....you would like to engage in conversation with, but as soon as you ask the, "What's up?" question you will regret saying it because you don't want to hear the answer? I wonder if people feel that way about me sometimes. Although usually when people ask me what's up or what's new, I say, "Nothing much."

My fishy is dying :( He won't eat anything. I think by the end of the week he will pass away. I wonder if I'll have a fishy funeral or if my dad will just flush him down the toilet. It's kind of funny though because I was feeding all of the fish in their separate bowls and I put food in the sick fish's bowl fully not realizing that there was no fish in there....my dad had moved him to another container and isolated him from the others. He looked so sad (the fish, not my dad).

On a side note: go Portugal

Generation ?

I was flipping through channels today and happened upon MTV Canada. There was that show on called Super Sweet Sixteen, where these uber pretentious and spoiled girls plan their big parties. But tonight's episode was about someone planning their 15th birthday party? And apparently it is supposed to be the biggest night of her life. Until when? Her 16th??

I can't believe these parents spend so much money on stuff like this. On my 16th birthday my friend decided to throw me a surprise party - except she couldn't figure out the surprise part.

Maybe someone will throw me a happy 28th birthday party? WOW I'm getting old. Oh. My. God.

1+1 = .......my brain hurts

For f*ck's sake, I just lost my entire post.

This is how my week's been.

This is how I feel today:

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I've been saying that romance is dead for years. Which is not entirely true...there are still a few guys out there who will make the effort, but it seems very short lived...maybe just enough to reel you in, and then once you're comfortable, all romance gets dumped out of the window. Not alluding to any specific instances, but just making a generalization. And yes, it is my opinion, and yes, feel free to say otherwise.


What ever happened to the little things? Like packing someone's lunch, or spontaneous hugs, or surprise phone calls, or flowers, or ....actual....dating? Now I'm not talking about gestures from guys who secretly have crushes on you or whatnot...I'm talking about the guys who would actually call themselves your boyfriend, the ones you are in a committed relationship with.

Maybe it's because apparently we don't "appreciate" it or have too high standards to be satisfied with anything. Or maybe putting yourself out there is taking too big of a risk. Who knows, I only speak from my own collaborative experience. Of course, we are to blame as well, because we probably spend far too much time watching romance on television and in movies, rather than actually doing it.

Relationships really are hard work. And when they end, people always say one of two things:
"There are plenty more fish in the sea" - Yes, but there is also lots of garbage

and

"Time heals all" - And so does alcohol (at least puts you into a state of "who gives a shit")

Time heals, but you have to actually PASS that time, while going through all the stages...denial, guilt, anger, acceptance.

And, do you do the friends thing afterwards? Or is it better to make a clean break? Quite tricky if you have mutual friends. Or...a baby (NOT saying I know from experience!!) I see so many failed relationships where there are children involved and it's just not a good scenario.

But, you know...you can only gain from your experiences. Where am I going with this post. Nowhere.

Okay, this post is way too serious for my liking. I suggest you watch this video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wzMJ_RdgHg&search=silent%20library%203

This is how I feel:

I don't know why....I just do.